Have you ever

Have you ever felt the need to cry until you fall asleep? to cry long and hard and loud until someone takes your pain away?

That's what I'm feeling right now. and if I had the time, or the tears would come I would allow myself this one indulgence. But I have promises to keep, and miles to go before I sleep.

Meaning that I can't even allow myself to do this because I have homework to do. and everything I do (or choose NOT to do) affects my future, and as I want the best possible future, I have to do everything I can to make that a possibility. essentially, I have to give my life to school right now. I can't even afford time to cry. not right now anyways.

My English mid-term is due in t-minus 20 hours and it may or may not take approximately that much time to do it.

Please cry for me.